アホペンギン
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- Jul 10, 2023
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My father today tried to apologize for what he did to me all these years, I don't think one apology can make me forget a decade of abuse. He CONSTANTLY reminded me of how fucking useless and incompetent I am and how I'd never amount to anything all those years ago, by abusing me verbally and physically, I can never forget it and he will never be forgiven. He ruined my life and he isn't even aware of it, he thinks I will immediately forgive him after listening to his apology. If only he took that anxiety medication sooner than later maybe I wouldn't be here right now. He even blamed me for my depression by saying that I should've talked to him when I felt bad, he was the reason I felt like shit all the time and why would I tell him about it? It'd be blaming him right in front of his face and I'd only be met with more and more abuse. I'm so useless, he doesn't even know that because of his abuse I contemplate ctb all the time, I always catch myself planning my ctb when I have nothing to do or when I zone out during something..
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