I had a positive (kinda) thought today

[kooktae]

So I'm going to be 23 in a two months. I had the thought that I should live till I'm 50 which means I'll have to live for 27 more years. And them I'll ctb. Till then I'll find N and keep it so I can use it when I'm 50. My parents will be old by then and my siblings will also be grown up. I don't have to do anything grand for next 27 years. Just find a job that I can tolerate for 10 hours everyday. I think it's doable.

 

[Firegirl]

It's definitely doable, and things might even brighten up between now and then. Good luck!

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Good idea to hold off. I am also semi waiting for as many people as possible in my life to die before I potentially do anything. My family loves me a lot, but there aren't many of us and once I'm an old nobody I won't be beholden to anyone.

 

[Belle Jar]

So I'm going to be 23 in a two months. I had the thought that I should live till I'm 50 which means I'll have to live for 27 more years. And them I'll ctb. Till then I'll find N and keep it so I can use it when I'm 50. My parents will be old by then and my siblings will also be grown up. I don't have to do anything grand for next 27 years. Just find a job that I can tolerate for 10 hours everyday. I think it's doable.

So I'm going to be 23 in a two months. I had the thought that I should live till I'm 50 which means I'll have to live for 27 more years. And them I'll ctb. Till then I'll find N and keep it so I can use it when I'm 50. My parents will be old by then and my siblings will also be grown up. I don't have to do anything grand for next 27 years. Just find a job that I can tolerate for 10 hours everyday. I think it's doable.

It's definitely doable. I don't know your situation but I have found if you can make enough money to live independently and alone, and quiet down the negative voices in your head, life can be okay-ish. Also having a pet and cannabis gummies help a good deal.

 

[SarRy]

Sometimes all it takes to have the courage to go on is to know that you don't have to. As they say, you can always kill yourself later. Anyway, glad life seems tolerable enough that you plan on sticking around. Hope the years to come are kind to you.