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666razorblade

666razorblade

Recovered. Life is good.
Jul 7, 2023
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I had a dream last night where I ctb by hanging. In my own bedroom, I tied a noose and attached it to the bar in my wardrobe. It was a partial suspension, and I remember it vividly. I woke up and was a little bit disappointed that it wasn't real.

It was interesting, because I probably wouldn't go by hanging if I was really going to do it, though it would be up there as a plan B of sorts. I think I'd go with SWB, which I've been fascinated by since you could make it look like some kind of accident. But yeah, interesting dream.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
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I know what you mean, I sometimes have dreams where I CTB. But they are by gunshot to the head.

Kinda crazy how some dreams can feel so Damn fckn real, while others I actually "know " it's a dream in some sort of way. Kinda weird / interesting Imo.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,250
To me it's very much understandable dreaming about suicide if one is thinking about it a lot when they are awake, I personally find it difficult to remember what I dreamed about, I just forget.
 
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jemetire

oh well
Jun 11, 2023
154
I just had a dream about ctbing with SN and after I drank the SN I immediately regretted it and I was so scared, because I started to feel the symptoms like headache and heavy breathing and I felt very dizzy. Somehow I did not die in my dream, but now I do not want to ctb in real life (and I am apparently not suicidal anymore for now…?)
 
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ctb-soon

ctb-soon

Student
Jul 12, 2023
166
I had a dream last night where I ctb by hanging. In my own bedroom, I tied a noose and attached it to the bar in my wardrobe. It was a partial suspension, and I remember it vividly. I woke up and was a little bit disappointed that it wasn't real.

It was interesting, because I probably wouldn't go by hanging if I was really going to do it, though it would be up there as a plan B of sorts. I think I'd go with SWB, which I've been fascinated by since you could make it look like some kind of accident. But yeah, interesting dream.
I've had dreams like that. I just slip away with the words to myself. "Don't fight it. Just let it happen".
 
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アホペンギン

アホペンギン

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Jul 10, 2023
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I remember, i also had a dream of ctbing. I won't go into too much detail because it was long but i ctbed with SN and i ordered it from china
 
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