Venting I guess hanging isn't for me

[ArchmagePrincess]

I wanted to practice partial hanging since it's a very cheap and accessible option. Exit bag is my preferred choice but it's been hard getting and keeping all that stuff hidden. A rope is just a rope and easy to buy and store whenever.

I gave it a couple of shots to gain confidence that I could hang myself but because of my panic disorder every time I started to fade out, I got a major panic attack too that debilitated me and prevented me from controlling myself.

I guess the SI is particularly hard on my panic attacks. I read all about people's struggles with SI but it's a completely different beast experiencing it firsthand, my goodness it's awful. I wish it were as simple as just keeping that rope around and knowing I can leave whenever I need to, but I think because of my tendency for panic attacks I won't be able to hang myself. I know some suggest alcohol or using benzos but both have just worsened my panic attacks in the past.

Oh well, frustrating and disappointing experience, but I guess I won't be able to hang myself.

 

[Bunnybrains]

Yeah- partial is brutal. If u read through the posted method there are alot to sort through but if u stick eith it and mske sure u'll be successful so u dont end up disabled

 

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You can try flying for once... Maybe that would make you feel better..? But if you change your mind i really hope you dont go through with it, if you want we can talk about it i promise to listen to you

 

[ArchmagePrincess]

You can try flying for once... Maybe that would make you feel better..? But if you change your mind i really hope you dont go through with it, if you want we can talk about it i promise to listen to you

try flying? like on a plane?

 

[Bunnybrains]

If ur trying again, lean over, and stand up really fast a few times till u pass out into the rope. Alchohol xould help too

 

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try flying? like on a plane?

More like... Have you ever thought about falling before..? Doesnt it sound beautiful? Falling also can be flying, you get to die with style and the taste of freedom, you get the last few seconds to think of your last words and feel the wind for the last time.. Jumping off a bridge or a building...?

 

[ArchmagePrincess]

More like... Have you ever thought about falling before..? Doesnt it sound beautiful? Falling also can be flying, you get to die with style and the taste of freedom, you get the last few seconds to think of your last words and feel the wind for the last time.. Jumping off a bridge or a building...?

I can see the appeal of jumping but I've ruled that one out as something I'd consider. I'm afraid of the pain or even surviving as some have from tall heights. My paranoia makes it too hard to leave the house and even if I could manage I'd just be terrified in my final moments. I'm really only considering things I can do privately inside a home.

Yeah- partial is brutal. If u read through the posted method there are alot to sort through but if u stick eith it and mske sure u'll be successful so u dont end up disabled

Yeah, I read through it before trying. Reading was the easy part, attempting was brutal. I just think since the recommended method is kneeling and you can just stand up, and my panic attacks will make me freak out it's hard to keep the pressure on or even just not stand.

 

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Are you scared of cutting your wrist too? I dont recommend using a gun, i heard that it may sound quick but they also said that you can feel EVERYTHING even with your head blown off until you loose blood, you can feel your body numb out all at once or smth, and i dont think pills are "painless" as they always lead you to vomiting blood out or sht... But i think the falling one can be different, it would be too late for your brain to even process everything before you die. Though i understand that youre scared... Maybe a high building can work? A sky scraper? That would be a gurantee you'd die...

Or you can try drowning in water, unless that scares you toi

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I would suggest the CO Method. Well prepared it's pretty quick without SI kicking in and probably could also be arranged to "happen while sleeping". Lots of info about it here:

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[ArchmagePrincess]

Are you scared of cutting your wrist too? I dont recommend using a gun, i heard that it may sound quick but they also said that you can feel EVERYTHING even with your head blown off until you loose blood, you can feel your body numb out all at once or smth, and i dont think pills are "painless" as they always lead you to vomiting blood out or sht... But i think the falling one can be different, it would be too late for your brain to even process everything before you die. Though i understand that youre scared... Maybe a high building can work? A sky scraper? That would be a gurantee you'd die...

Or you can try drowning in water, unless that scares you toi

Wrist-cutting isn't viable, neither are any pills I have access to, and I'm not entirely sure shallow-water drowning is effective. Also, I'm currently in a small rural town with no skyscrapers and even leaving my house is incredibly difficult.

How do you know you feel everything with a gun? Where did you hear that?

I would suggest the CO Method. Well prepared it's pretty quick without SI kicking in and probably could also be arranged to "happen while sleeping". Lots of info about it here:

Carbon monoxide megathread

Hi, this will be the megathread for the carbon monoxide method. I have some questions about the charcoal method, is it a simple method to do? Like buying charcoal and setting it or there is some steps and setup to follow The ppeh gives low rating for preparation but good rating for...

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Thanks, I hadn't given CO a fair shot yet. I think it's promising.

 

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Wrist-cutting isn't viable, neither are any pills I have access to, and I'm not entirely sure shallow-water drowning is effective. Also, I'm currently in a small rural town with no skyscrapers and even leaving my house is incredibly difficult.

How do you know you feel everything with a gun? Where did you hear that?

Thanks, I hadn't given CO a fair shot yet. I think it's promising.

I speciqlize in science, and it's scientifically proven that you indeed CAN feel everything at once before dying.. All of the options are painful,let alone a gun. You can search it up yourself.
And by water i meant how about the ocean..? Maybe you can try to jump off when you go on a vacation.. Just make sure nobodys looking.. And THEN the water will be deep enough, you'll get tired eventually and guarantee you wont be able to help yourself even if you look for an island, that's just inhumanly impossible

 

[Torabol]

I speciqlize in science, and it's scientifically proven that you indeed CAN feel everything at once before dying.. All of the options are painful,let alone a gun. You can search it up yourself.
And by water i meant how about the ocean..? Maybe you can try to jump off when you go on a vacation.. Just make sure nobodys looking.. And THEN the water will be deep enough, you'll get tired eventually and guarantee you wont be able to help yourself even if you look for an island, that's just inhumanly impossible

Sorry, but your advice, whether it is to jump or to drown, seems redundant in this case.

 

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Sorry, but your advice, whether it is to 'fly' (Falling isn't flying, no.) or to drown, seems redundant in this case.

Sorry i cant help! Have a nice day

 

[Torabol]

Sorry i cant help! Have a nice day

You too friend, hope I didn't come off as an assH Just clarifying that I meant what I meant for this specific case (because of their anxiety) and not that you're generally wrong or anything. It's also completely anecdotal so what do I know?

Have a blessed day

 

[FuneralCry]

The hanging method sounds so horrible and risky to me personally, I hate how it's so difficult to die in this world, it really makes that method sound easier when you hear of people managing to succeed, I envy their courage. But anyway I wish you the best, it really is so awful and tiring feeling trapped here in this world, the thought of failing ctb certainly terrifies me.