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MISERYinlife
life then Death
- Jan 18, 2019
- 60
so here is my story back in april i had everything set up was minutes away from ending it and somehow still not sure why they even looked for me but i was found in my remote location couldn't believe it had a rope and gun was going to do both just to make sure i didn't fail then my daughter fiance brother and dad all showed up so i still had the option for the gun held them off for 4 hours and let them talk me out of it only to continue my miserable life was in a mental hospital for a week was a joke to me as i am still suffering with anxiety and depression anyway they took all my guns and wont give them back and i don't even have the energy to go get another one i am messed up bad so went to hang myself partial and chickened out for some dumb reason so i guess i just need to get over the fear now and do it where i can't chicken out and make sure feet is off the ground i hope it works and it's fast as i know gun with the hanging and i would have been free already i told them all they are selfish for making me hold on but they just think i am messed up in the head...man i wish i had my guns back but anyways i will and am going to do it i have no choice i just suffer and lay in bed all the time what a screwed up world and mental health sucks big time i'm over it can't worry about hurting them any longer i am suffering bad and i told them that....please let the hanging be an easy and painless way..