I get it. I'm pretty much angry all the time. I have been a quiet pushover my whole life, but recently I've really let my anger show externally. Frankly, I don't even care about how it affects others at this point. I hate everyone and everything. If I have to suffer this disgusting fucking existence that I never fucking asked for, I'm going to act the way I want and say what I want. I have nothing to lose.
Ironically, I seem to get more respect being an asshole. I should have become an asshole sooner.
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Me, too. I'm pissed and with good reason, so if people don't get it, then FUCK OFF! dammit! meanwhile, I have done a lot of good in this world, despite all the reasons I could have turned into a total 100% bitch.
I'm perpetually angry. I'm just so fucked off with the world - the injustice of virtually everything enrages me. I'm upset with my own pathetic self, why can't I just choose to be happy, why can't I just be a better man? Yeah Bea, I can absolutely relate to how you're feeling.
"why can't i just be a better man?"
oh, my god, i so feel you. i've spent my life trying to be "better". why doesn't anyone else do that???
Thank you. I don't even know you, but I love you.
I am angry a lot...but I have a rule to never put that anger on an innocent. I reserve it for the people who earned it...sadly...like most of us I imagine....it gets turned inside since you can't really put it on the bad folks in any meaningful way. Everyone who suffers is angry...its infuriating....the world and all its easily preventable problems are infuriating...getting old is infuriating....its all so infuriating. So being angry isn't a bug...its a feature :) All we can do is recognize the real cause and try to never take it out on others who don't deserve it.
Yes, yes, yes I hear you. I've been a teacher my whole life, so I'm all about NOT taking the angry out on the wrong people. I'm all about helping, actually. I did, though, recently lash out at my best friend, but I swear it's because I need to distance her from me right now.....I feel horrible about it, though. She just doesn't get this, so I have to distance her, and the only way I can do that is to be a little mean.
I am also. I am angry. I am also sad that my best friend thinks that I am dumb and stupid. I am angry that i am so tired.. I don't know how to fight.. the fight is futile.. this evening i am beginning looking at my N, and thinking just end it all. If I end it all, i wouldn't know what happens, or feel anything...
hey, Wendy. why does your best friend think you are "dumb and stupid"? doesn't sound like much of a friend to me. I'm sorry you're tired; i feel you there. me, too, love. you have Nembutal? damn, that'd be hard to resist taking.
you still there?
