Lullaby
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- Mar 9, 2022
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Ever since I was a kid, dreaming has been my biggest escape. I've been lucky enough to have vivid, lucid dreams. I could dream about whatever I wanted, it would feel real and I would be happy.
These days, I hate dreaming. I don't want to dream about what I wish my life was like, what it would be like if certain people being in my lifeā¦I don't even want to dream about being a different person. I've been wanting to fall asleep to total darkness. I don't want to see anything, I don't want to hear anything, just nothing.
It's effecting my reality now too. Everything is too loud and too bright. The sun, the traffic, people laughing outside; it's too much. So I sat in my bathtub today with the lights turned off because I just couldn't take it anymore.
When I pass on, I've always hoped that there would be something, even if it were just a long dream. I didn't want there to be nothing.
Now, I don't really careā¦the thought of nothingness is becoming more comforting to me.
These days, I hate dreaming. I don't want to dream about what I wish my life was like, what it would be like if certain people being in my lifeā¦I don't even want to dream about being a different person. I've been wanting to fall asleep to total darkness. I don't want to see anything, I don't want to hear anything, just nothing.
It's effecting my reality now too. Everything is too loud and too bright. The sun, the traffic, people laughing outside; it's too much. So I sat in my bathtub today with the lights turned off because I just couldn't take it anymore.
When I pass on, I've always hoped that there would be something, even if it were just a long dream. I didn't want there to be nothing.
Now, I don't really careā¦the thought of nothingness is becoming more comforting to me.