I gave up. I don't go to my university classes, i don't study, i don't go out with friends (i dont have any) and I just sit inside all day in my cold appartment (the heating doesn't work) and I do nothing but use that little bit of energy left in me to look up ways to die. But i dont have the energy to do even this. Christmas is coming and i have to see my family and my childhood friends, and i really don't want to. I don't want to put an act again that everything is alright. I want to get this over with before Christmas. But Im too lazy for even this.
KillingPain267
Enlightened
- Apr 15, 2024
- 1,455
I feel totally the same. You described my existence, if you can call it that. Except, I do have heating, so I got that going for me, which is nice.
