Venting I fucking hate myself for this shit.

[SpaceBoyEvangef]

I hate this shit so FUCKING MUCH. I was so damn close to attempting but I stopped myself, why? Why did I stop myself? I should have just sucked it up and done it, why the fuck did I stop myself?

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I have been in the same situation as you years ago, had I just gone through with it I would´ve saved myself from so much pain and suffering which just goes to show that life doesn´t get better and by ctb I (and others) just prevent further suffering. I have had no new and/or good experiences since all those years ago but there has been plenty of pain and suffering which I could´ve spared myself from IF I JUST WOULD´VE HAD THE FUCKING BALLS TO GO THROUGH WITH IT I HATE MY WEAK ASS SELF FOR NOT GOING THROUGH WITH IT!!!

 

[thewalkingdread]

We are trapped in this nefarious pigsty... And even If we have the key to escape It, it's still so hard to leave ...

 

[Mi Mi]

I hate this shit so FUCKING MUCH. I was so damn close to attempting but I stopped myself, why? Why did I stop myself? I should have just sucked it up and done it, why the fuck did I stop myself?

It's apart of the process
I'm a hypocrite I know
But don't beat yourself down
It's natural to fear the act or the consequences

 

[divinemistress36]

Survival instincts your body is designed to keep you alive it doesn't give a damn how miserable you are

 

[F@#$]

I hate this shit so FUCKING MUCH. I was so damn close to attempting but I stopped myself, why? Why did I stop myself? I should have just sucked it up and done it, why the fuck did I stop myself?

I get it. I went to my parents basement when I was a teenager(over 20 years ago) with my dad's pistol. I chickened out and have regretted it every day since.

 

[throwaway9901]

survival instinct can be a total bitch :/