Venting I fucking hate being forced to be around people.

[Livingvsdying25]

I hate it here. I hate that I have to fucking interact or watch someone interac.

I hate that I can't control my environment and I have no controls over the bullshit triggers and such that come up. Like... I'm over it.


Me having to completely re-route my mind just because people can't SHUT THE FUCK UP and LEAVE ME ALONE and LET THIS BE MY HOME .... is fucking bullshit.

Its unfair how someone/people can cause a complete disruption but at the end of the day, Its my job to fix but If i haad to choose I wouldnt be dealing with the shit anymore. Ugh

Also, on a side note Prasozin (high blood pressure medication commonly prescribed to help woth PTSD sleep issues) majes me feel fucking awful. Puts my body in a weird place and really limits like how much I can do. I stopped taking it like a month ago and after taking it for 2days again, it really hit me how much of a hindrance it is.

Its frustrating bc sleep can be difficult. It just seems like a lot of the medical solutions aren't helpful in other areas.

Sighs. Its early. My stomach feel meh. Body feel weird (Prasozin.) Today I don't particularly feel like stewing in shit emotions but I've been tryna deal and im tired.

Maybe this is just part of being able to process triggers but eh... just feel meh

 

[WornOutLife]

I know what you mean! Because of my failed attempt, I'm a prisoner in my parents house and it's hell; noisy, disturbing, neither peace nor time alone, etc.

Also, I don't like being around people anymore. That's why I quit my job but I don't know how long I can continue living as a NEET.

Anyway, life sucks and I'm with you, pal.

Hugs

 

[Deleted member 94]

I know what you mean! Because of my failed attempt, I'm a prisoner in my parents house and it's hell; noisy, disturbing, neither peace nor time alone, etc.

Also, I don't like being around people anymore. That's why I quit my job but I don't know how long I can continue living as a NEET.

Anyway, life sucks and I'm with you, pal.

Hugs

What are you doing for cash? Do they give you welfare support in Argentina? Sorry about Argentina loss of Diego Maradona. He was a legend, not even Messi comes close in my opinion.

 

[WornOutLife]

What are you doing for cash? Do they give you welfare support in Argentina? Sorry about Argentina loss of Diego Maradona. He was a legend, not even Messi comes close in my opinion.

Yeah, we really miss Maradona here. Thank you!

As for the cash, my parents are supporting me. I only get internet, food and a bed lol. Also, fortunately, I have some savings.
I wonder if I'll get back to work before CTB (some time next year)

What about you? Are you working? There is welfare support in Argentina but I don't fit in any of it.

 

[Deleted member 94]

I am in a halfway house between recovery and ctb, opportunities keep showing up to try and integrate me back into society. I am currently on disability but in January will be working with a local charity concern.

Also as synchronisation would have it a guy I met recently showed an interest in me helping out in the community. I told him I was a former accountant and he said he is community manager for a lot of voluntary organisations in this area and how would I like to chip in as trustee for those.

Yeah, we really miss Maradona here. Thank you!

As for the cash, my parents are supporting me. I only get internet, food and a bed lol. Also, fortunately, I have some savings.
I wonder if I'll get back to work before CTB (some time next year)

What about you? Are you working? There is welfare support in Argentina but I don't fit in any of it.

Did you not try to fight for it through your doctor.

 

[mimiopo22]

Sì, ci manca davvero Maradona qui. Grazie!

Per quanto riguarda i soldi, i miei genitori mi stanno sostenendo. Ho solo internet, cibo e un letto lol. Inoltre, fortunatamente, ho dei risparmi.
Mi chiedo se tornerò a lavorare prima del CTB (qualche volta l'anno prossimo)

E tu? Lavori? In Argentina c'è il supporto del welfare, ma io non ci sto.

what did you feel to make your attempt fail? sorry if I ask you

 

[Nymph]

I really hate being around ppl too, now with holidays it's even worse cause we have to be together all the time

 

[kappa]

You don't really "have" to be around other people though..

Even if your living with family you can choose to interact or not. I'm sure my family used to think I was an unreasonable asshole, but I got tired of faking it.

Have you heard of the term "grey rocking"? It's originally used when dealing with narcissists, but I bet would get anyone to stop bothering you.

 

[WornOutLife]

what did you feel to make your attempt fail? sorry if I ask you

It felt terrible because everybody looks at you with same and think: "here's the suicidal guy who can't cope with life."
I hate those looks but well, I'm getting used to it. I'll hang myself properly next time.

 

[Going Home]

PTSD is a bitch.
I can relate to you. I used to like people and I was very friendly but after things happened to exacerbate my PTSD everything changed. I don't like being around people much anymore. This feeling comes over me and I would like to yell EVERYBODY LEAVE ME ALONE.

Most psychiatrists are full of shit but maybe you can find a good one to prescribe a better sleep med.