Venting I fucking failed. again.

[RoseGarden]

that's all I fucking do. fail. I can't even fucking die properly. I test my spot thoroughly. I can fucking hold onto my anchor point and dangle. it supports my weight. but when I go to actually hang myself? it fucking breaks.

I get risen from blissful unconsciousness by faceplanting my fucking dresser. I guess I can just try sn but with my fucking luck I'll throw it up or something

 

[bipbapbop]

I'm so sorry to hear that you're in such pain. It's so unfair how difficult it is to CTB. I hope you can get some rest because it sounds like you've had a difficult night.

 

[Mea Culpa]

I'm sorry things didnt go as planned

 

[bookie]

I'm so sorry

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry. This sounds so agonizing. Partial or full? Install a strong enough anchor point. What did u use as anchor?

 

[rozeske]

I'm sorry, I understand your frustration.

 

[Otaku]

Before joining this forum, and learning about specific things.
There was a lot that surprised me.
It's not quite so easy to CTB, as most would think before studying it.
Before lurking/joining this site i always thought... If it gets bad, i can always CTB. At that time,my preferred method was blood loss.
I was uneducated an naive,and thought seeing when people take blood samples, that it would be relatively easy. I was wrong.

The point is. It's not easy to CTB. It's fucking hard. So try not to beat yourself up.

 

[lixt]

It's not your fault. I'm sorry it didn't work out. Most suicide methods have very low success rates!

 

[FuneralCry]

I despise how it's so unnecessarily difficult to die, it's extreme cruelty to me how people cannot just choose to easily die in peace. I really wish there's a straightforward way to just be gone.

 

[iloverachel]

So sorry my friend

 

[RoseGarden]

I'm sorry. This sounds so agonizing. Partial or full? Install a strong enough anchor point. What did u use as anchor?

partial. I used my closet rod that has a center support. I could grab it and hang from it without issue but I guess some side-load broke it.

Before joining this forum, and learning about specific things.
There was a lot that surprised me.
It's not quite so easy to CTB, as most would think before studying it.
Before lurking/joining this site i always thought... If it gets bad, i can always CTB. At that time,my preferred method was blood loss.
I was uneducated an naive,and thought seeing when people take blood samples, that it would be relatively easy. I was wrong.

The point is. It's not easy to CTB. It's fucking hard. So try not to beat yourself up.

I despise how it's so unnecessarily difficult to die, it's extreme cruelty to me how people cannot just choose to easily die in peace. I really wish there's a straightforward way to just be gone.

I just wish I qualified for euthenisia. I'm exhausted with living. I hate my life, and none of the people I know in real life understand. They keep expecting me to "get better" and when I don't they abandon me.

 

[theboy]

I also failed