Venting I found a lump in my neck, I hope it’s csncer

[l1ablemistakes]

Last night I was stretching my neck and noticed a little twinge on the left hand side, it felt like a knot in the muscle almost. I went to go massage it out and immediately noticed a hard mass, maybe about 1cm by 1cm. I couldn't massage it out. I asked my partner and he said he could feel it too, and that it was even visible. I know it's probably just a swollen lymph node but god part of me hopes something will just take me out so I don't have to do it. I have an appointment tomorrow to get a referral for a scan. If it is cancer and this is a lymph node, then it's likely not the primary mass which makes death even more likely. I know cancer is a horrible way to go but I don't mind if it means my family and friends dont have to blame themselves for my suicide.

 

[CosmicError]

i actually have one on my right side too but its soft and not visible i can move it who knows what it is all i know is i will be long dead before i find out tho lol.