Very relatable. I can't help but think my situation is hopeless. There is such a gap between me and my age peers, I don't think this gap of experience can be bridged. One day you wake up and you realize a decade has gone by. It all went by in the blink of an eye without much of significance happening. My recollection of it is a complete blur. I have almost no memories of it because I lived such an empty life. I have no life story to tell anyone beyond my teenage years, no narrative. There are no signposts to tell a story with. There is just emptiness. Everyone has had new experiences and made new memories that have shaped them but this is missing completely with me. I lived and still live a poor and uninteresting private life. Everything that shapes a person's life, that strengthens and molds a person, I lacked: education, career, friendship, hobbies, love, relationships.
Is it possible anyone will relate to someone like me? Because of isolation I am an empty shell. I have no experiences to share with anyone other than what it's like to live a life of isolation, emptiness, boredom and loneliness. It's like @BottomlessPit said, it destroys your personality. The only solution seems to be creating a fake persona but that will not give you a true connection with anyone and you'll still feel empty inside. My personality has been shaped by isolation and emptiness and the result is a nihilistic and somewhat cynical personality. Perhaps this has been a form of damage control. To care as little as possible about anything, so that I feel as little as possible and the blow of living such a life has been lessened so that I can still somewhat function and get through the day.