I finally understand how it feels to want to die and to finally end it all

[FireFox]

I just want to sleep and never wake up. Right now everything feels like a bad dream which you want to wake up from but this is not a dream this is reality. I have no energy to fight anymore. I feel so defeated. Never have I felt so powerless, alone and trapped. Nothing can give me relief anymore from the pain except for death. I finally understand how one can find true comfort in death.

Inside my mind I feel like I am stuck inside a burning building. The smoke is choking me. I try to escape but can not. The windows are blocked, the door is jammed and the smoke keeps choking me. I scream for help nobody is coming. All I want is to break free.

I want to break free from this world. I don't belong here.

Suicidal people we are not selfish we want the pain to stop.

 

[Gaga786]

Im sorry to see you suffering so intensely. I'm in a similar position and I feel there there is no escape from this hellish world. I just don't have anything to offer to society or anyone. Things are pretty much going to get worse for me as time passes. I, too, don't belong here.

 

[Already Gone now]

I just want to sleep and never wake up. Right now everything feels like a bad dream which you want to wake up from but this is not a dream this is reality. I have no energy to fight anymore. I feel so defeated. Never have I felt so powerless, alone and trapped. Nothing can give me relief anymore from the pain except for death. I finally understand how one can find true comfort in death.

Inside my mind I feel like I am stuck inside a burning building. The smoke is choking me. I try to escape but can not. The windows are blocked, the door is jammed and the smoke keeps choking me. I scream for help nobody is coming. All I want is to break free.

I want to break free from this world. I don't belong here.

Suicidal people we are not selfish we want the pain to stop.

I can understand this feeling very well... You may not feel or see it, but you're not alone friend. Be as open and and truthful about how you feel about everything. However, I say all of this besides my own self loathing. I hope find some relief from feeling like that. If you ever wanted to talk for sake of privacy in whatever way, I'll be around. Whatever makes you comfortable, it's an open door with sincerity behind it.

 

[FuneralCry]

The thought of death certainly is so incredibly comforting, as after all to die solves all problems, and death is the absence of all suffering. I've always found comfort in the thought of permanently not existing, it just sounds so ideal being completely unaware of the hell that is existence. Your feelings are very much understandable, I've also never seen myself as being meant for existing.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Same here. I mean, I thought I always understood it because I've wanted to die for a while, but that isn't the same as knowing it's time and being ready for it. I think that's where I am now, but I'm sorry that both of us had to end up here.

 

[death's lover]

I just want to sleep and never wake up. Right now everything feels like a bad dream which you want to wake up from but this is not a dream this is reality. I have no energy to fight anymore. I feel so defeated. Never have I felt so powerless, alone and trapped. Nothing can give me relief anymore from the pain except for death. I finally understand how one can find true comfort in death.

Inside my mind I feel like I am stuck inside a burning building. The smoke is choking me. I try to escape but can not. The windows are blocked, the door is jammed and the smoke keeps choking me. I scream for help nobody is coming. All I want is to break free.

I want to break free from this world. I don't belong here.

Suicidal people we are not selfish we want the pain to stop.

it makes me happy to know that someone out there feels the same way I do and knows how comforting death can be.

 

[Dying Alive 00]

I can very much identify with all the posts above. I used to be the fun loving person with a stable enjoyable life, who relished growing old part gracefully and part disgracefully

Now, I'm trapped. Materially and emotionally. Nothing, absolutely nothing brings peace or enjoyment. The only difference day to day is which shade of shit it is. I have my end date in mind, it's more or less all I think about these days and instead of actually doing anything in life, I can sit for hours using battery life, reading through posts on here. It's about the only thing close to giving any comfort. The sense of community here - it doesnt help with the loneliness in the material world of course, but it helps with emotional loneliness to a degree. Still lonely, but not completely alone.

Every morning, it's such a huge disappointment waking up. Not for much longer.