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FireFox
Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
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I have been severely depressed and suicidal since the age of 21. I have really tried to give myself a good life all I wanted was to be happy. If I started university on time last year September like I was supposed too I wouldn't have self destructed the way I did. Getting into that university masters programme was the only amazing thing I had in the worst year of my 2023. I was forced to defer due to fianacial issues. After that I finally gave up on life. All the terrible things I went through in 2023 I kept fighting and fighting but after being forced to defer I just gave up on life.
I am 27 now. One week after my 27th birthday I had a nervous breakdown.
One day everything finally all became too much. For me it was turning 27 with no real achievements, still deeply heartbroken over the man I love and he caused me so much pain with his lying and mind games,nothing going right in my life, death of my grandfather a couple of years ago who I loved so much. My grandfather was the only relative who cared about me all my other relatives don't care about me they only care for themselves and use everybody
I just broke down screaming and crying at my family members over how much I hate the relatives due to their years of constant using of everybody and being told to accoet it, relatives never coming to help whenever my family need help, my pure resentment over having to start my masters degree this year which should have been my year of graduation. I told my mother I resent her for sending her money overseas over the years to help these relatives because I have lost out. In African and Asain immigrat families it is common for families to send money overseas.
Afrer my family argument I wanted swallow overdose and drown myself in the bathtub. I wanted to kill myself because I wanted all the pain of everything to stop permanently because I was finally tired of life, fighting and never winning. I couldn't bring my self do it.
My family were horrified and shcoked at my comments because they never seen me lash out like that
I am 27 now. One week after my 27th birthday I had a nervous breakdown.
One day everything finally all became too much. For me it was turning 27 with no real achievements, still deeply heartbroken over the man I love and he caused me so much pain with his lying and mind games,nothing going right in my life, death of my grandfather a couple of years ago who I loved so much. My grandfather was the only relative who cared about me all my other relatives don't care about me they only care for themselves and use everybody
I just broke down screaming and crying at my family members over how much I hate the relatives due to their years of constant using of everybody and being told to accoet it, relatives never coming to help whenever my family need help, my pure resentment over having to start my masters degree this year which should have been my year of graduation. I told my mother I resent her for sending her money overseas over the years to help these relatives because I have lost out. In African and Asain immigrat families it is common for families to send money overseas.
Afrer my family argument I wanted swallow overdose and drown myself in the bathtub. I wanted to kill myself because I wanted all the pain of everything to stop permanently because I was finally tired of life, fighting and never winning. I couldn't bring my self do it.
My family were horrified and shcoked at my comments because they never seen me lash out like that
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