I am in so much pain emotionally. I spent the last year entertaining my ex, thinking we would be life long friends. I drove on road trips to visit and to make plans and put in efforts. She never did the same for me but her reasoning was she wasn't ready for anyone to have access to her emotionally. I can see now a year later how dumb I was for doing this. I planned a whole vacation for her and her son for her birthday. I wanted her to feel special. I offered to take her to dinner for a birthday dinner occasion. She agreed. After wards, she texted me saying maybe next time we can spend more time together. 2 weeks later she texts me telling me she wants to cut ties. A week after that I find out she met someone and they rotate weekends on visiting each other . I feel so worthless. I'm in so much pain I don't know how to make it stop. I just want to die. I've gone through this before and it feels awful. I love her with all my being and all I wanted was a genuine friendship. I don't think I'll ever recover from this. Here's a picture of the surprise birthday
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