i feel worse than ever

[Comfydant]

my mom just screamed at me louder than she ever has before about how i just turned 20 and i'm still a leech, how i do nothing to contribute, how i never let her into my room even though it's her house and she pays for it. all because i brought up the fact that the wiring in the house is faulty and it's a hazard to my safety and she should worry about that before redecorating the living room. i feel like shit. i didn't ask to be brought into this world and i really wish i hadn't been, or at the very least i wish i'd been born to different parents. i have no reason to keep going anymore and my mom would genuinely be better off without me, but i'm too much of a pussy to kill myself and i don't have access to any methods that require me to go out and buy things because i can't drive, i don't have a job, i don't have any money, my dad has control over my bank account, i still don't even have my fucking ged. but god, i want to die so badly. i keep hoping something will just kill me. i think it'd be easier and have a higher success rate if someone or something else was the one to do it. i just don't want it to be painful.

 

[Gaga786]

im in a similar position. 20 years old, can't drive, don't have any talents etc Just a burden on my family. It is just so difficult and I really feel for you. I wish you the best

 

[FuneralCry]

I also wish I never existed, in my case more than anything, I understand that it really can be so dreadful and torturous feeling trapped here when you just wish to leave, it certainly should be easier to finally leave this existence we were burdened with.