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TheEndisNear121200
Student
- Oct 10, 2020
- 109
I've been a long time lurker on this site but I only made an account 2 days ago.
After reading extensively about all the methods that are mentioned here, I realized that the only method I can go with is hanging.
It's just so sad that I feel forced to go with a method I don't like only because I can't get what's needed for other methods.
I've come to accept it though in the last weeks as I have to end my life, and hanging will do the job I guess.
The problem is that I still haven't found where to do it yet, there are metal bars in our garage that can serve as a strong anchor point, but I don't want to do it inside our home.
My brother has suffered enough and is already in bad mental health. I just don't want him to be the one to discover me. I don't want him to be severly traumatized because of me.
My parents can also be the ones to discover me and I can't let that happen.
There are no forests near where I live, there are no bridges if I decide to jump instead.
I feel trapped, I can't keep existing, I have to die but there is no way out. What am I supposed to do ? I didn't ask to be born so why am I subjected to this torture ?
After reading extensively about all the methods that are mentioned here, I realized that the only method I can go with is hanging.
It's just so sad that I feel forced to go with a method I don't like only because I can't get what's needed for other methods.
I've come to accept it though in the last weeks as I have to end my life, and hanging will do the job I guess.
The problem is that I still haven't found where to do it yet, there are metal bars in our garage that can serve as a strong anchor point, but I don't want to do it inside our home.
My brother has suffered enough and is already in bad mental health. I just don't want him to be the one to discover me. I don't want him to be severly traumatized because of me.
My parents can also be the ones to discover me and I can't let that happen.
There are no forests near where I live, there are no bridges if I decide to jump instead.
I feel trapped, I can't keep existing, I have to die but there is no way out. What am I supposed to do ? I didn't ask to be born so why am I subjected to this torture ?