I feel too lazy to ctb

[kk13]

Im so lazy i dint even wanna do this i dont wanna try i know its probably gonna fail

I feel like a fucking loser i cant even kill myself properly

 

[Charmander07]

Don't worry I'm sure you're not a loser for that, there are so many people here including myself that have failed or don't feel motivated to do it. I literally had someone close to me teaching me how to do it and I still couldn't , not a very good influence might I add. I'm doing better now, a lot better, but I have failed plenty of times and I don't think that makes me a loser.

But yeah don't blame yourself for not being motivated, I hope you find peace one day

 

[hurb]

Im too lazy to even get out of bed. There is levels to this loser thing

 

[SpacingOut]

Reminded me of this, so just gonna leave it here

 

[ForgetIExist]

Im so lazy i dint even wanna do this i dont wanna try i know its probably gonna fail

I feel like a fucking loser i cant even kill myself properly

Glad I'm not the only one. It's so weird. I have no motivation to live, thus I want to die, but I can barley find the motivation to do research sometimes. I just stare at a wall and have no thoughts whatsoever. Luckily there's SN, which doesn't require a lot of effort.

 

[L.D.50]

even tho i really easily could im still too lazy to do it too, and squeamish. looking at all the hanging threads gets me nauseous lol. i kinda wanted to post something similar on here but never did. i hate it, i want more than anything not to be here, and i've balanced on the line between being alive or dead before, but i just can't. why is it so terrifying and enticing at the same time?

 

[Pluto]

 

[Lost21]

I have been wanting to ctb for almost 30 years but I am too afraid to do it

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I have been wanting to ctb for almost 30 years but I am too afraid to do it

Wow. The thought first occurred to me 15 years ago but I'm only serious about it in spurts of a few months. Maybe two years total, and I've never been able to get it done.

Im so lazy i dint even wanna do this i dont wanna try i know its probably gonna fail

I feel like a fucking loser i cant even kill myself properly

Same. I can't even go pick up my happy pills. I keep getting worse (doing less) but I get no closer to suicide.

 

[Matchaaa]

I feel like a fucking loser i cant even kill myself properly

You're not a failure. I get lazy sometimes too—things like booking hotels and making preparations can feel like a hassle. It's just human nature.

 

[Hollowman]

Severe depression can be a defense mechanism. There's many cases of people getting medicated and regaining their energy. Then they off themselves.