I feel the pain of loneliness every single day without exception

[Crematoryy]

My brain is producing suffering from the lack of connection with real people. I wish they would look me directly in the eyes, hug me, and tell me I don't have to fight my problems alone. All I've ever wanted is a romantic partner or boyfriend/girlfriend. I would describe this experience as neurochemical emotional pain, something similar to a chronic headache. My whole body tells me that something is wrong and missing. I experience creations within my own mind to feel less lonely, to obtain the neurosensory stimulation that the world has vehemently failed to provide me, whether with hugs or physical touch. Objects don't change places in my house unless I rearrange them. I miss simple things, like the active and autonomous behavior of another being that is not controlled by me. There are studies that prove the decrease in memory capacity in isolated individuals, since they lose the stimulus of conversation between two or more people, which leads to synchronous monotony. This has been going on for many years. I am not responsible for this situation, but I will be responsible for getting out of it! (through life or death).

 

[brazilianautistic]

I'm sorry, we're on the same boat.
Don't know if you also feel this but it breaks me to see people who have friends and a healthy social life saying they have no friends. Being actually isolated feels physically terrible.