I feel so violated all the time.

[missingpeace]

I'm watching my muscles spasm by themselves in my legs, demonic energy penetrates every part of my being. It puts its own thoughts in me, it puts its own feelings in me, doesn't let me do number 2 fully, I'm constipated, I'm in so much suffering and being completely violated in every part of my being, all I can think about is when my heart will stop and when I will be free. I'm tired of being it's powerless play toy. Demonic oppression is very real and happening to me in the extreme. I want to hang myself but when I try it hurts.. I'm begging God for a solution, the waiting to take SN or nitrogen at the opportune time is driving me crazy. Please naysayers just don't reply I'm already at my wit's end as it is.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so incredibly horrific what you have to endure, I hope that you eventually find freedom from your torment as that just sounds so unbearable.

 

[missingpeace]

That sounds so incredibly horrific what you have to endure, I hope that you eventually find freedom from your torment as that just sounds so unbearable.

I never in a million years thought that this would be my fate, that I would be taken beyond what is humanly possible to bear. I just feel rage all the time at my existence and the way God is making me live through this.