mya_
Not in this lifetime
- Jun 13, 2024
- 51
Well I can't believe things have gotten so bad lmao. I started in this site because my brother killed himself and look where we're at. I understand him better than ever, that's true. But I'm also more inconsiderate because I'd like people to see my suffering and me ending it (just a fantasy tho).
Like, I try to make art and make a career out of it, try to enjoy life and make plans, and NOBODY GIVES A FUCK. They only care when you tell them that you have plans and hopes, but only because that takes away the responsibility to make you feel better. They do not support the actual project nor want to hang out with you because they have other things to do. And that's only for the few people that I know, because I try to post on social media and nobody gives a fuck either. I've talk to my therapist and she's like, what do you lose for trying? Well, I lose my fucking mental health and my will to live. It's so easy to say "just try!" when you don't actually have to do it and live with the constant confirmation that you don't matter at all. That all your efforts are going to the void. Even some guy laughed at me on TikTok because my video didn't have likes?? Wtf??? I'm so tired and sad idk what I'm going to do.
Like, I try to make art and make a career out of it, try to enjoy life and make plans, and NOBODY GIVES A FUCK. They only care when you tell them that you have plans and hopes, but only because that takes away the responsibility to make you feel better. They do not support the actual project nor want to hang out with you because they have other things to do. And that's only for the few people that I know, because I try to post on social media and nobody gives a fuck either. I've talk to my therapist and she's like, what do you lose for trying? Well, I lose my fucking mental health and my will to live. It's so easy to say "just try!" when you don't actually have to do it and live with the constant confirmation that you don't matter at all. That all your efforts are going to the void. Even some guy laughed at me on TikTok because my video didn't have likes?? Wtf??? I'm so tired and sad idk what I'm going to do.
