Venting I feel so trapped

[enditall222]

If I continue living, everything would just get worse and worse. If I die, everyone I know will have their lives permanently changed forever. Why is God or whatever is out there so cruel???

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't think there could ever be a God, existence is just endless suffering and senseless cruelty all with no deeper purpose. And dying is not something that could happen, we are all just waiting around to die, to me death certainly is the only relief in this dreadful, hellish reality, it's so horrible how there is unlimited potential to suffer so endlessly as long as one is trapped here.