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JamieJambo

Experienced
Apr 17, 2022
202
My life is a total mess. I have nothing. Literally. I am fucked. I am past the point I ever thought I could go, and past the point I thought I would get to in order to take my life.

But anytime I go to do it. I put my belt at the top of the door I put the belt around my neck and lean forward, I get slightly dizzy and pull back straight away,

I am just merely pretending. I don't have the will to commit suicide. Its just to severe, yet living the life that I have now, is way worse than death.

I would happily die tonight by any other means than self suicide.

I wish it were all over tbh
 
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DPJ187

Student
Apr 14, 2022
128
I'm sorry your suffering. Your not alone, whatnyou have just said is exactly how I feel. If I could flick the off switch, I would do it now too. Find peace my friend
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
524
On top of all the pain we face, many of us are forced to consider more of it just to be free finally. Life is very harsh. I recently tried hanging and ruined my "rope" - I guess I had pushed it one too many times finally, it's given out before me. Hanging is a hard way to go. Now I'm hoping for SN again but it still hurts in a way that the pain and agony I'm in can't just give me a break and do this for me. I'll have to hurt myself again to leave. I'm sorry you're suffering so much in life but feel trapped. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,987
I understand how you feel, I just want to be free from this world as well. More than anything I wish that it was easier to leave, we all deserve the option of a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing, people should not have to resort to methods like hanging in the first place. I'm sorry that you are going through this, I know that this life can be unbearable when all you want is to be gone. I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.
 

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