I feel so shit for not going through

[Navi]

Tried to ctb yesterday. Got so angry and felt so alone and right after I popped some pills someone decided to swoop in and play the hero. I regret listening to them. Why did I listen to them? Why did I stop?

 

[SilentSadness]

That's unfortunate that you had to be deceived by someone like that, but it's probably better that it happened because pills are a very ineffective and brutal way to ctb. It's such a shame that ctb is so difficult and that we're treated so badly in this world just for having even the slightest common sense, but I guess that complaining won't change anything. I hope you can find the peace you're trying to achieve.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really do hate how we exist in a world where those who wish to be gone cannot just die in peace. It's certainly cruel how we are denied peaceful and reliable ways to ctb, and how there is the potential risk of others interfering. People certainly shouldn't have to struggle to leave this world that they were so unfairly forced into.

 

[bobblong]

Maybe it was partially your own survival instinct (SI) fault as well.

 

[Navi]

Maybe it was partially your own survival instinct (SI) fault as well.

that could be it too. still i felt kinda ready and i was at peace with the fact that i was to die in perhaps a couple of hours.