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BlueButterfly19
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- Sep 14, 2024
- 18
Thanks to hints on the forums (took me a very long time of scouring through the forums and several weeks on and off searching) I've finally found DMC and placed my order. I feel so relieved because other methods I wanted to use were either outdoors where I could be possibly found which I wanted to avoid (I want to do it in the comfort of my home, I live alone), or scarily painful. Sounds kind of silly but it feels like a security blanket knowing if things turn for the worse I have a way out that supposedly won't be awful (I can handle vomiting and even if I fail I'll be happy I won't have lasting damage). Also from what I gather it has a long shelf life so I can keep it around for as long as I need. I haven't been suicidal in the past couple years but knowing there's a way out if I ever have a psychotic break again or the world goes to shit is just such a relief and filling me with joy. I never thought I'd be able to find a way out of this hellish existence called life but I'm glad I found this forum by circumstance. I'm so happy I want to cry.
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