Venting I feel so horrible

[Rollinggirl]

I feel so horrible I cannot even go out to get the materials to end my life, I envy those that have guns, pretty quick death if you shoot correctly. I just want this feeling to end, I want to stop feeling so horrible, I have been feeling this way for 2 years...please please please please please stop

My mum just makes me feel even worse for not being able to function. I dom't want to wait anymore,I just want to die.

I don't want to jump down the building, I don't want to wake up and be paralysed, isn't it worse?!

I feel dead inside. Just existing and sleeping my life away.

Someone just shoot me.

I obviously cannot buy and ship guns to my country,I will get arrested.

I feel like complete death.

 

[vulturecyclop]

Hey there. Have you tried going to a psychiatrist? Are you on antidepressants? I felt like you in the beginning of the year, but after being prescribed to some, I can think a bit clearer...just a thought. How do you feel now?
Sorry if my comment disobeys any forum rules, you can ignore it, since this is a venting post..I just wanted to respond and let you know you're not alone.