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galier
Member
- Aug 2, 2024
- 7
Two and a half years ago I was in the best moment of my life, recovering from a major loss in my life. Unfortunately in the least expected way a sociopathic narcissist came into my life and changed it forever. Emotional abuse, lies, secrets, manipulations, constant infidelities were part of my life for more than 2 years, if only it was easy to get out of the cycle of abuse, but no, it took me 2 years and 3 months to escape, and here I am today totally affected with CPTSD and the trauma bond that this left me with, no friends, only my mother who does not understand what happened to me. And what it means to have this is constant flashbacks and sensations during the day and while I sleep, there is never a break from this psychological torture. I never imagined I would be here again, but here I am and truly because of this and understanding how bad things are in this world, I don't want to live anymore. I just have not been able to choose a method, I live in a country where it is difficult to have access to things like tanks or SN, plus now I live with my mother, it will not be easy to find a way, but I will find it. I just wanted to get it off my chest, because literally that relationship left me with no one in my life, I am completely alone.