gerot
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- Nov 25, 2019
- 39
I've never vented online, probably because im scared of my bad english and because nobody cares, but i can't take those emotions anymore, it is 4 am here, i'm drunk and feel so hopeless, i'm neet, never had a girlfriend and never had a job and i'm 23, its not like i dont want to work but i feel so scared of social interactions and what other people will think about me because i didn't finish hs because i thought i will be dead by then but guess what i'm still here, feeling hopeless and crying my eyes out, i have sn and i want to take it so bad, i alwasy planned my ctb but ended up postponing it, i'm so coward, i feel like i am losing my mind and this ocd feels like its kiling me inside, always counting things, always scared of touching things, i dont know what to say anymore, my head feels numb and then full of those thoughts, i don't even knew what i am doing or saying but atleast it made me concentrate on what i was writing rn now and it calmed me down a little.
Edit: Now i feel like this post is useless because there are others people who are really suffering and i'm such a cry baby
Edit: Now i feel like this post is useless because there are others people who are really suffering and i'm such a cry baby
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