PxB
Member
- Dec 18, 2021
- 16
I feel like CTBing because of my current situation (poverty, mental illneses, and being ugly) but then I realized that I would give an EGO boost to the people I recently argued with because they would think that they have caused my death if they heard I CTBed, which is partly true. I got gaslighted by them after I talked about my problems, so I argued with them, but I lost in those arguments because I was too depressed to do my best, and now their opinions is weighing on me, so they did contribute a bit to the clinical depression I'm currently having. The feeling that I would make those POS happy if they heard that I CTBed is what's stopping me from CTBing right now. How can I overcome this thought that is preventing me from CTBing?