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- Jun 3, 2022
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2019 - a complete clusterfuck in every way imaginable. also the year i started being actively suicidal. new year's eve, i think to myself "wow, that was the worst year of my entire life".
2020 - do i even need to explain? new year's eve, i think to myself "wow, that was the worst year of my entire life".
2021 - my mental health goes straight down the shitter throughout the whole year. new year's eve, i think to myself "wow, that was the worst year of my entire life".
2022 - there's just such a malaise to everything now. i can barely describe it. everything feels gray and low vibrational, even more than it did before. no wondering what i'll think to myself on new year's eve.
2022 currently holds the record for the worst year of my life and tomorrow will probably be the worst day of my life. the dog i've had since i was 12 years old is set to be euthanized in the morning (parents are taking her). she has a tumor in her liver. she's not eating or drinking anything. she's tye sweetest thing you'll ever see ahd she got a tumor in her liver. she was supposed to live for anotyer 4-5 years(?) but sye got a fucking tukomor in yher liver. ive already screamed my lungs oy7ut today thinking about it. i doht even wanna know how im gonna feel waking up in the morning knowing the last innocent thing in my lfie is ogne.. i dont know how much longer i can go. as always im sorry76 for tyeis post being all ovyer the place but im just tired and scared and i cahjnt fuckiung take it any more. i cahbt even look at tgyher
2020 - do i even need to explain? new year's eve, i think to myself "wow, that was the worst year of my entire life".
2021 - my mental health goes straight down the shitter throughout the whole year. new year's eve, i think to myself "wow, that was the worst year of my entire life".
2022 - there's just such a malaise to everything now. i can barely describe it. everything feels gray and low vibrational, even more than it did before. no wondering what i'll think to myself on new year's eve.
2022 currently holds the record for the worst year of my life and tomorrow will probably be the worst day of my life. the dog i've had since i was 12 years old is set to be euthanized in the morning (parents are taking her). she has a tumor in her liver. she's not eating or drinking anything. she's tye sweetest thing you'll ever see ahd she got a tumor in her liver. she was supposed to live for anotyer 4-5 years(?) but sye got a fucking tukomor in yher liver. ive already screamed my lungs oy7ut today thinking about it. i doht even wanna know how im gonna feel waking up in the morning knowing the last innocent thing in my lfie is ogne.. i dont know how much longer i can go. as always im sorry76 for tyeis post being all ovyer the place but im just tired and scared and i cahjnt fuckiung take it any more. i cahbt even look at tgyher