canyounotbesad
Member
- Mar 19, 2024
- 33
I have a history of SH and suicidal thoughts. I feel like I've had them since I could remember things. Lately, I feel like I've been doing better. I'm in therapy and I take meds to help stabilize. I don't feel the need to harm myself anymore. But I feel like I'm not actually getting better. I've been drinking so much more, and it started about 2 years ago; Before I had a healthy relationship with it. I know this can and will become a bigger issue very fast. I'm fairly healthy outside of this too; I work out, I eat right, I hang out with friends etc etc. I feel like I'm using it as a mask cause at my age being drunk is more accepted than wanting to catch the bus. I know this might not be the best site/thread to talk about this, but I don't know where to turn without getting the same advice and feeling worse about this. Have any of you struggled with this? How did you overcome it? I don't want to give alcohol up completely, but I also don't want to get worse.
