I feel like going insane every day

[sorrowfull user]

Every day i get theese periods where my mind goes insane and i try to rip my skin off my body and try to hurt myself really badly. I also get intense thoughts about suicide . I recently tried to ctb by hanging but i stopped before i passed out and got found out. Funny thing is that nobody is taking it super seriously. Hah its really something. But i want to ctb again but i dont have any better method than hanging since SN shipping costs too mutch. But right now im in utter hell and every day is torture. My mind breaks and im nearing the point where im going to start ripping my face with my fingers.

Its so painfull but all i can really do is hope..
But i lost that a long time ago

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be so horrific what you are going through, it's certainly such a hellish existence where people have to suffer so much, I hate how it's so difficult to die, it really should be much more straightforward to cease existing.