dqngerous
i am the damned, i am the dead
- Nov 11, 2024
- 25
i have a circle of a few friends. but we don't really hangout anymore due to conflicting schedules + regular post high school drifting. but we still talk and i know they care about me.
the thing is, i know i'm not the first person any of them think of. i'm not the one any of them want to see one-on-one.
i have a lovely girlfriend that i see all the time. we've been together for 5 years. but i'm worried we're slowly drifting apart…i feel like we get annoyed with each other more and have little arguments more often. she's really passionate about her job and has friends there and she feels comfortable and confident with what she does. but i'm still just working a temporary part time job & i don't have anybody at work that i talk to. i feel like she's moving up and moving on and i'm just stagnant.
anyway, all this to say i feel guilty about feeling so lonely because i have people in my life. i have friends, i have a partner, i have a loving family, but at the end of the day i don't really talk to anybody. i don't even feel like i can open up to anybody especially since all they ever do is worry about me. but there's people out there who have no s:o, no friends, no family…i have no right to feel lonely. but when i spend most days laying in bed alone i can't help but to feel lonely.
the thing is, i know i'm not the first person any of them think of. i'm not the one any of them want to see one-on-one.
i have a lovely girlfriend that i see all the time. we've been together for 5 years. but i'm worried we're slowly drifting apart…i feel like we get annoyed with each other more and have little arguments more often. she's really passionate about her job and has friends there and she feels comfortable and confident with what she does. but i'm still just working a temporary part time job & i don't have anybody at work that i talk to. i feel like she's moving up and moving on and i'm just stagnant.
anyway, all this to say i feel guilty about feeling so lonely because i have people in my life. i have friends, i have a partner, i have a loving family, but at the end of the day i don't really talk to anybody. i don't even feel like i can open up to anybody especially since all they ever do is worry about me. but there's people out there who have no s:o, no friends, no family…i have no right to feel lonely. but when i spend most days laying in bed alone i can't help but to feel lonely.
