I feel defeated

[Ravel]

Today I just realized how dreadful life can be. I haven't cried for a long time and I just realized how absurd, dreadful life is, I was on the ground crying for help in my room, begging for God to kill me, trying to undestand what happened to me, i'm at my lowest, completely alone, my life is messed up. I feel so much pain and this life seems so absurd, Words cannot describe how much I hate myself, I despise the fact that I was born

 

[FuneralCry]

I also very much despise how I was burdened with the ability to exist, to me it's cruelty how humans continue to so selfishly and harmfully impose existence, creating so much unnecessary suffering as a result. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, I understand that it's so torturous feeling trapped here.