WearyWanderer
Student
- Nov 3, 2019
- 127
I just need to rant for a second and I'm in too much pain to reply to the replies so I apologize in advance but thought I might post here bc at least it would get replies.
I am bedridden and alone other than being around my family so things are much lonelier than before. It seemed like I always had to make more of an effort to be heard and acknowledged than many others pretty much my whole life. I'm not a loud or extroverted person at all so that probably played a part. And when I did hang out with people, 99 percent of the time, I set it up and invited them, it was rarely the other way around.
I'm just sick and tired of feeling invisible and honestly having those feelings confirmed in both online and in-person situations (this is not a jab at anyone, just a general feeling/statement.
I had a few real life friends but they dwindled away after my disability and only visited because I reached out to them. When I could still make plans, I would frequently be ghosted when trying to figure out if they were still happening and just get no response until after the scheduled date if at all.
I basically have no friends anymore, including online because I am too sick to maintain contact and provide emotional support. I've had one post on my wall in the two years I've had an account here and again I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad, it just stings, y'know? Ok, I guess there was one other post before that wishing me a happy birthday but I tried to interact more when I first joined and was well enough to meet people but it didn't seem to make much of a difference.
Anyway, if there's anyone else who feels similarly and alienated from your environment no matter where you go, feel free to add your thoughts in the comments.
Any response here is usually better than the ones of silence or "Don't feel ignored" which I received on two other stupid mental health sites and then everyone was defending the people who said that it was a fucking "simple fix" problem.
So yea, I just feel invisible and even more invisible when others (not from here) who have no idea what I'm talking about try to discount my feelings and experiences. The feeling has only been magnified by increased isolation due to physical health.
End rant I guess.
I am bedridden and alone other than being around my family so things are much lonelier than before. It seemed like I always had to make more of an effort to be heard and acknowledged than many others pretty much my whole life. I'm not a loud or extroverted person at all so that probably played a part. And when I did hang out with people, 99 percent of the time, I set it up and invited them, it was rarely the other way around.
I'm just sick and tired of feeling invisible and honestly having those feelings confirmed in both online and in-person situations (this is not a jab at anyone, just a general feeling/statement.
I had a few real life friends but they dwindled away after my disability and only visited because I reached out to them. When I could still make plans, I would frequently be ghosted when trying to figure out if they were still happening and just get no response until after the scheduled date if at all.
I basically have no friends anymore, including online because I am too sick to maintain contact and provide emotional support. I've had one post on my wall in the two years I've had an account here and again I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad, it just stings, y'know? Ok, I guess there was one other post before that wishing me a happy birthday but I tried to interact more when I first joined and was well enough to meet people but it didn't seem to make much of a difference.
Anyway, if there's anyone else who feels similarly and alienated from your environment no matter where you go, feel free to add your thoughts in the comments.
Any response here is usually better than the ones of silence or "Don't feel ignored" which I received on two other stupid mental health sites and then everyone was defending the people who said that it was a fucking "simple fix" problem.
So yea, I just feel invisible and even more invisible when others (not from here) who have no idea what I'm talking about try to discount my feelings and experiences. The feeling has only been magnified by increased isolation due to physical health.
End rant I guess.
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