Venting I feel completely disconnected from this world

[ClownMe]

I imagine a lot of you feel this way, but I just thought id make a post because it's late where i am and i cant get to sleep no matter how hard i try.

My entire existence feels somewhat like an out of body experience, im obviously here physically and i can feel everything that this world throws at my body, however mentally i feel dead.

It's a weird feeling and it only seems to strengthen with each day im forced to live. I just feel dead but i keep living for the sake of living. Im not doing anything with any real purpose or meaning, im just doing it. People dont even feel real to me anymore (if that makes any sense), theyre just others i have to navigate to get through to the next day which is filled with nothingness.

 

[popuoh]

Same here, it's like being forced to watch a movie of your life but it's a real shitty movies and you can't do anything about but watch.

Anyways sending ghost hugs your way and hope you'll find your peace eventually

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate.
Last year, I just looked at my wall, turned off my phone and only talked to my dog. I was alive but not in this world anymore.
Now, I kinda am but it's a daily struggle.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Same here, it's like being forced to watch a movie of your life but it's a real shitty movies and you can't do anything about but watch.

Feels like I'm forced to watch a two-hour-long Amy Schumer special.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can relate to this. Sometimes I feel like i've already died but still conscious and breathing. I can see the world around me but I just feel so numb to it all. I feel like my life has no purpose or meaning, (which nobody's does anyway as we all just die). I wish you the best.

 

[RockBot]

'Reflective Self-realisation Disassociative Disorder'

Not a real psychological term but it makes me sound clever asf

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

Yeah.
Sometimes I think it would be easier to deal to deal with a physical terminal illness than a mental one that destroys your mind but leaves the body "alive".

 

[LansJ70]

I can relate to this. Sometimes I feel like i've already died but still conscious and breathing. I can see the world around me but I just feel so numb to it all. I feel like my life has no purpose or meaning, (which nobody's does anyway as we all just die). I wish you the best.

No purpose or meaning - that's exactly how I feel.

 

[newave3]

Feels like I'm forced to watch a two-hour-long Amy Schumer special.

A Clockwork Orange....one of my favorite movies from the great Stanley Kubrick.

I understand and agree with every word @ClownMe wrote.

 

[Just A NPC]

I feel this exact same way and it's getting stronger. I miss being able to be excited about something, like genuinely.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Same I feel disconnected from humanity socially I don't like this but I can't recover I isolated too long and I'm disadvantaged

 

[downndone2]

I completely agree. I feel like I've sentenced myself to prison in my own home. Life is truly awful

 

[lifeisbutadream]

I feel like that too, like I'm amost done with this planet. I don't feel like it's my home anymore. I've visited here long enough.

 

[niki wonoto]

I'm from Indonesia. You're not alone, I can relate with everything you've said. IMHO, it's also probably part of an existential depression (at least in my case personally).

 

[Squiddy]

I imagine a lot of you feel this way, but I just thought id make a post because it's late where i am and i cant get to sleep no matter how hard i try.

My entire existence feels somewhat like an out of body experience, im obviously here physically and i can feel everything that this world throws at my body, however mentally i feel dead.

It's a weird feeling and it only seems to strengthen with each day im forced to live. I just feel dead but i keep living for the sake of living. Im not doing anything with any real purpose or meaning, im just doing it. People dont even feel real to me anymore (if that makes any sense), theyre just others i have to navigate to get through to the next day which is filled with nothingness.

Sounds like depersonalization/derealization and I also feel it 24/7 with it getting worse at times of stress

 

[Q-Dust]

Nothing is wrong with me, It was just bad luck that I was raised to be like this