Venting I failed.

[Mukuro Ikusaba]

I failed. I always failed. I always will fail. No matter how hard I try to change things, I continue to engage in the same behaviors over and over again. I don't know why I bother anymore. I know I'll be ignored. I'm almost expecting it. I just want to end myself already...I can't take this anymore. I have no-one, but I don't want anyone. Everyone hates me anyway, so why bother. I hate them too. I just want to end myself and be done with it...at least then I can be at peace...

 

[missedmybus]

I don't hate you.

Failure is a chance to learn. I know this sounds cliché jusbeurself bullshit, but try reflecting on your actions, and seeing what you can do different in the future.

Try writing out what happened, why, how, when who with, etc it happened.

See why you do the things you do, and try to find a way to them differently in the future. Set measurable goals/alternatives.

Here are some resources:

https://clearthinking.co/reflecting-on-practice/

SMART criteria - Wikipedia

en.m.wikipedia.org

I don't want to come across preachy or give unwanted advice, but these methodologies have helped me navigate life a bit.

 

[Mukuro Ikusaba]

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[missedmybus]

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Sorry!

 

[platypus77]

I failed. I always failed. I always will fail. No matter how hard I try to change things, I continue to engage in the same behaviors over and over again. I don't know why I bother anymore. I know I'll be ignored. I'm almost expecting it. I just want to end myself already...I can't take this anymore. I have no-one, but I don't want anyone. Everyone hates me anyway, so why bother. I hate them too. I just want to end myself and be done with it...at least then I can be at peace...

Hey friend,
I feel you and actually lived through it more times that I could count.
Just wanted to say that my offer the other day stands still. My DMs are open whenever you feel like to chat.