I failed SN and got admitted to a psych ward

[notahappygirl]

Hi, I havent been active for the past months because i was embarrased i failed my SN attempt. When i attempted I hadnt slept well for three days and i was hearing voices. The SN didnt do shit to me and made me feel really ill. My head felt like it was exploding and i had to call for help. My SN was from alibaba and I believe it wasnt pure. After the hospital I was admitted to the psych ward I stayed there for a week they treated with so much kindness and the food was delicious. Now im seeing a psychiatric and they are making me take aripiprazole,trazodone and escitalopram. But they are not making me feel any less depressed i still want to kill myself. I have two bottles of Nembutal that I plan to use in the next couple of weeks. I miss this site so much and i want to find someone I can trust here because i want to document my ctb I feel like it will give me more motivation to do it. Thanks any message is appreciated

 

[slowdance]

Are you sure the N is pure? There are a lot of scams

 

[Namelesa]

Sorry it didn't work out how you wanted the attempt to go. Know its okay that it failed with us as we won't shame you that it didn't work. I hope you can find a way to get out of your suffering one way or another.

 

[theshund]

Where the hell did you get N? That's like the holy grail of ctb.

 

[Forveleth]

Sucks that your attempt does not work but sounds like you have a back up. Also really happy that your psych stay was not traumatizing!

 

[notahappygirl]

Are you sure the N is pure? There are a lot of scamsy

Are you sure the N is pure? There are a lot of scams

Yes I got it in a Vet in Tijuana México

Sorry it didn't work out how you wanted the attempt to go. Know its okay that it failed with us as we won't shame you that it didn't work. I hope you can find a way to get out of your suffering one way or another.

Thank you

Where the hell did you get N? That's like the holy grail of ctb.

Tijuana Mexico

 

[J&L383]

It's good you got N, which is better than SN. I wish you the best.

 

[theshund]

Yes I got it in a Vet in Tijuana México

Thank you

Tijuana Mexico

I'm envious and impressed by your resourcefulness and commitment.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope that you find peace from suffering.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'm sorry your attempt failed. It sounds like a horrible experience. I'm terrified to drink that. You're so lucky you have N. Maybe I should plan a trip to get me some. Do I need a pet to go see a vet there? I know you're in recovery but can you explain what you said and did to get N please I hope you're feeling better and they are treating you good.

 

[notahappygirl]

I'm sorry your attempt failed. It sounds like a horrible experience. I'm terrified to drink that. You're so lucky you have N. Maybe I should plan a trip to get me some. Do I need a pet to go see a vet there? I know you're in recovery but can you explain what you said and did to get N please I hope you're feeling better and they are treating you good.

You dont need a pet. I got the source from another member here. No questions ask. Anything you would like to know you can message me :)

 

[orderphil91]

How was your attempt with SN? Did you do the purity tests before the attempt?