I failed my second midterm in college and I fear I’ll be put on academic probation. I feel impulsive

[SomedayorNexttime]

I don't know what is going on this semester. I already failed a class last semester and was put on a warning. But now, I'm going to fail again, and I can't drop the class since my account has been put on hold for reasons I don't know of yet.
I was so hopeful until today, and then i remembered how unprepared I was. I'm failing multiple classes, but this one exam I failed was my worst class. I couldn't go to office hours because I have classes at the time.
I'm going to be put on probation and I can't explain it to my family.
I had a perfect GPA two years ago and I tanked it because I have horrible time management and don't understand the material enough. And I think I might attempt tonight anyway.
I'm so tired of being a loser, I hate not being in the know like others. My grades are my fault solely, but that doesn't change the fact that my life will be harder from here on out.
I kind of don't want to end it so quickly because this is only a college course, but in these times, you can't afford to fail. I never had internships or work experience, I actually have nothing to show for myself other than grades. And now that doesn't matter because my GPA is about to be shit.

I can't stop crying. I'm supposed to be an adult, but I clearly have not grown at all, and I'm a failure in every sense of the word. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I want to give up.

 

[gomer1978]

I guarantee you two things.

1. You won't believe what i say in number 2.

2. Education means fuck all. You're led to believe its everything whilst you're so young. It's only when youre older you see it's complete shit. Don't do anything based on exams, qualification schools etc. None of it means anything. Your destiny and happiness have fuck all to do with it.

 

[claracatchingthebus]

I don't know what is going on this semester. I already failed a class last semester and was put on a warning. But now, I'm going to fail again, and I can't drop the class since my account has been put on hold for reasons I don't know of yet.
I was so hopeful until today, and then i remembered how unprepared I was. I'm failing multiple classes, but this one exam I failed was my worst class. I couldn't go to office hours because I have classes at the time.
I'm going to be put on probation and I can't explain it to my family.
I had a perfect GPA two years ago and I tanked it because I have horrible time management and don't understand the material enough. And I think I might attempt tonight anyway.
I'm so tired of being a loser, I hate not being in the know like others. My grades are my fault solely, but that doesn't change the fact that my life will be harder from here on out.
I kind of don't want to end it so quickly because this is only a college course, but in these times, you can't afford to fail. I never had internships or work experience, I actually have nothing to show for myself other than grades. And now that doesn't matter because my GPA is about to be shit.

I can't stop crying. I'm supposed to be an adult, but I clearly have not grown at all, and I'm a failure in every sense of the word. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I want to give up.

What course was it?

 

[waqs]

i understand how you feel, im currently failing a class and have failed 2/3 exams in said class, i dont even know if i can make anything out of that class anymore. my best advice is to take a step back and breathe, if things dont work then itll give you another opportunity for a different path in life. i hope all the best for you <3

 

[penguinl0v3s]

Possible that you can just not explain it and tell them it's fine? Or lie?

I've gotten in probation before after dropping from a 4.0. I took a gap semesters and now my grades are back to a 3.8. It sounds like you're burnt out. You should take some time off, and I promise you it'll become much easier. Have you taken a gap semester before?

 

[claracatchingthebus]

I guarantee you two things.

1. You won't believe what i say in number 2.

2. Education means fuck all. You're led to believe its everything whilst you're so young. It's only when youre older you see it's complete shit. Don't do anything based on exams, qualification schools etc. None of it means anything. Your destiny and happiness have fuck all to do with it.

Can you drop out before the end of the semester and transfer to a slightly easier school? Sometimes the degree itself matters more than GPA or school name. Especially if this isn't a big well-knkwn school, just find a place with teachers that are less harsh. Drop out for the semester for medical reason (depression) but stay enrolled at the school, then apply somewhere else and say you're current school has too much racism, or wokism, or too little comunity and apply to other schools.

Be practical, you can still get a degree but this school sounds hard as fuck unless you aren't studying at all.

It all depends on what you want to do also. I don't think this is worth committing suicide over. Your degree is still salvagable and once people enter the career world, where you went to school and GPA matters progressively less.

If you dont want to change schools, you could drop out for the semester for medical reasons. They probably have to let you to be compliant with disability rules. Can you call the student office and find out why you can't drop? Communication is helpful.

Also, your grades are not soley your fault. A consistent measure of whether a school is good is what percent of their incoming class actually graduates. If you are failing, it may be the school that is partly to blame for not being supportive.

Possible that you can just not explain it and tell them it's fine? Or lie?

I've gotten in probation before after dropping from a 4.0. I took a gap semesters and now my grades are back to a 3.8. It sounds like you're burnt out. You should take some time off, and I promise you it'll become much easier. Have you taken a gap semester before?

This is really good advice. Do a gap semester.

 

[JustDreamer]

I relate to you completely. I am In the same situation. I'm consistently the worse performing student in my classes no matter how hard I try. I can't seem to grasp the topics and my mental health makes it feel impossible to focus. Everyone else has given good advice but I know in reality its not that easy to take a gap semester, switch schools, or just accept that our self worth isn't tied to our grades. I'm sorry you're feeling this way because I know how awful it is, for me its always so humiliating and full of so much shame/guilt. So if it makes it easier for you, you're not alone in the feeling. Sending love.

 

[Liebestod]

Are you a STEM major?