Story I failed my attempt...

[absolute failure]

okay, so i actually went there and many things went wrong:
1st: MY PHONE BATTERY DIED. I had tutorials on how to tie knots and I wanted to listen to music... i had to improvise the knots.. i somehow managed to do them
2nd: I was paranoid as hell. I heard constant water drops coming down from the trees and always thought someone was there, even though there was no one xd
3rd: I did 4 partial hanging attempts.
the first was 12 seconds. then i chickened out
the second was 13 seconds and i couldnt breathe...
then i switched the trees
the third was actually decent, 15 seconds while standing. I was worried me standing and leaning forward was the wrong idea and i got upset by it...
the fourth was my best attempt. 20 seconds, i was still standing because there were just too many thorns on the ground... after those 20 seconds i literally almost passed out. i felt super dizzy for a little
then I noticed I ended up in a hunting area in the forest because i saw a small wooden cabin where hunters shoot out of...
i was so pissed and anxious that i went home, defeated and angry at myself
ON TOP OF THAT: the bus driver wanted me to pay even though i had a ticket on my phone (which was off) and i paid the fee.
I dont know what to do moving forward
I have a small headache and some bruising around my neck now, but apparently otherwise no other injuries (for now)
i hate this shit
fml i hate how much of a loser i am, cant even do one thing right
to anyone reading this: partial works, but you need a good ground, a stable anchor and extreme hopelessness

 

[(ノ_＜)]

I'd definitely wait a bit before you attempt again, make sure it really is the right choice and if it is make sure everything is prepared

 

[floatingair]

You could try getting a hotel or motel and doing it there in your own privacy. I'd rather not risk being caught and would like the freedom of having all day to do it. A door pull up bar I heard would be a good anchor.

Take your time in doing this, you want to learn all the science and have it down right. You don't want it to be painful.

And like the other user said, maybe take a couple days break and reconsider if there's anything that would make life worth living

 

[absolute failure]

I'd definitely wait a bit before you attempt again, make sure it really is the right choice and if it is make sure everything is prepared

thank you for your advice <3 i will definitely not try again for like the next 2-4 weeks

You could try getting a hotel or motel and doing it there in your own privacy. I'd rather not risk being caught and would like the freedom of having all day to do it. A door pull up bar I heard would be a good anchor.

Take your time in doing this, you want to learn all the science and have it down right. You don't want it to be painful.

And like the other user said, maybe take a couple days break and reconsider if there's anything that would make life worth living

i will definitely try a hotel next. forest is not the best idea
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You could try getting a hotel or motel and doing it there in your own privacy. I'd rather not risk being caught and would like the freedom of having all day to do it. A door pull up bar I heard would be a good anchor.

Take your time in doing this, you want to learn all the science and have it down right. You don't want it to be painful.

And like the other user said, maybe take a couple days break and reconsider if there's anything that would make life worth living

it wasnt that painful, at my almost attempt i did it definitely right xd