NotOurFriend
Member
- Jan 9, 2024
- 10
A few days ago I was fucking drunk, as I Always am... I am drunk now too, so exuse the Bad writing, I am thinking in German and writing in english, and i cant really think straight.
At least I was with someone I really like, I think I might even love him.
However thats not what I wanted to talk about. We were sitting there in a park, 2 bottles of Port drunk, when he started to talk about his father and how much He hates him for commiting suicide when He was just 12 years old. And I am also disgusted by that, putting life in this world and then being a coward and Killing yourself for Not being able dealing with a Family you created for your own Ego. I told him also, that I could understand If someone didnt wanna live on this Planet anymore. And we had an amazing conversation about suicide and Killing oneself. I told him I was thinking about ending Things aswell, taking a zyanide pill and dying in like 1min. I told him about everything that happend to me and my Feelings, also my Feelings about him. We also came very Close to one another. Now i am Just worried that i gave him worries about me Killing myself, i dont want him to feel Bad about this and me.
I Love him.
At least I was with someone I really like, I think I might even love him.
However thats not what I wanted to talk about. We were sitting there in a park, 2 bottles of Port drunk, when he started to talk about his father and how much He hates him for commiting suicide when He was just 12 years old. And I am also disgusted by that, putting life in this world and then being a coward and Killing yourself for Not being able dealing with a Family you created for your own Ego. I told him also, that I could understand If someone didnt wanna live on this Planet anymore. And we had an amazing conversation about suicide and Killing oneself. I told him I was thinking about ending Things aswell, taking a zyanide pill and dying in like 1min. I told him about everything that happend to me and my Feelings, also my Feelings about him. We also came very Close to one another. Now i am Just worried that i gave him worries about me Killing myself, i dont want him to feel Bad about this and me.
I Love him.