Venting I don't want to give up on life

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

SQUARE.

I've had the worst imaginable fate but I'm still here wishing something can somehow make a difference and turn it all around ... yet I'm cursed with a dBPD single mother, severe OCD, CPTSD and other shit that makes every second agonising ... God I don't want to end up leaving in the worst possible way

 

[WorthlessCoward]

You got poisoned by hope

 

[HadItAll]

Sounds like your life could still improve a lot.

 

[freedfromvice]

SQUARE.

I've had the worst imaginable fate but I'm still here wishing something can somehow make a difference and turn it all around ... yet I'm cursed with a dBPD single mother, severe OCD, CPTSD and other shit that makes every second agonising ... God I don't want to end up leaving in the worst possible way

I was in a similar position. CPTSD and stuck with a narcissist single mom with various substance abuse problems. It can get better, idk how old you are but first step is to gtfo of there asap using whatever social and financial resources you have at your disposal.

 

[M0nolith]

I'm sorry to hear that you've had to endure so much pain and suffering in your life. It's understandable that you may feel overwhelmed and discouraged, but it's important to remember that there is always hope and help available. You are not alone, and it's never too late to seek help and work towards a better future. You deserve to live a fulfilling and meaningful life, and there is always hope for healing and recovery. There is too much beauty to life.

 

[scarecrowbubu]

If your choice is to hold on do it. It probably feels the best choice as of now. Focus on the rest that your heart is telling you, and remember at times the silence has the answers you are looking for. Wish you peacefulness and may your situation get better whatever you choose to do. ❤

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really awful what you have to endure and it must be so tiring being trapped in that situation. Life really is so unnecessarily cruel but anyway best wishes.

 

[violetchiwawa]

You got poisoned by hope

Your username speaks for itself

 

[WorthlessCoward]

Well duh

 

[justastranger]

If you are reconsidering ctb and you actually want to turn your life around, then it's not your time to go yet. Don't know how old you are but if you can get out of there asap, make a final decision and don't regret it

 

[just_so_done]

If you're not sure its your time to CTB then you're not ready and means its time to fight like hell to keep living another day. There is help out there and I hope you can find the right supports and live the life you want and deserve. To go from just surviving to thriving. Besides, if you ctb that is one choice that is final so I hope you exhaust other resources if you can.

 

[Source Energy]

Your username speaks for itself

that was uncalled for. A post like this is expected on Reddit, not here...

 

[wastingpotential]

i feel you. my life gets worse and worse as days pass and i don't see it getting better anytime soon. but i don't know if i'd want to die yet or not because i'm still hoping something comes in and helps me with even one struggle in my life

 

[just_so_done]

i feel you. my life gets worse and worse as days pass and i don't see it getting better anytime soon. but i don't know if i'd want to die yet or not because i'm still hoping something comes in and helps me with even one struggle in my life

Hold on to that hope and keep fighting. I truly hope you can find something to help ease the struggle and know that there's help out there. just take it one day at a time or even minute by minute.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I would recommend you seek guidence and advice from the recovery section. They're going to be much better help than a section full of people who feel no hope.

I wish you the best of luck.

 

[leavingsoon99]

If you're having doubts, then don't attempt. That's just my two cents. You should probably be in the "Recovery" part of this site.

 

[Caoine01]

Please don't get angry at me, but I don't think temporary external circumstances only are relevant to justify a CTB.
Send me a PM if you like to hear more or mybe get help.

 

[charlotte_]

There are still potentials for your life to improve, so don't give up just yet if you feel like it's not your time. How about search for advices and guidance from the recovery section or the people you know in real life? I'm sorry for your situation, and wish you the best on whatever path you choose