does anybody here ever wonder why things got like this? I just watched at old photos and stuff and i could just break down and cry wondering how it went so wrong. Its like it was all for nothing. Aren't photos supposed to cheer you up or something?
watereyes
les malheurs de lizzie
- Mar 27, 2020
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Always been stuck in a mild depressed/ actively suicidal state. So really even looking back I cant imagine things being better in the past; it has always been down down down, since as far as I can remember.
i completely feel you. Memories don't make me happy anymore, if anything, they make me more depressed. How does watching old photos make you feel? Or have you been depressed from an early age?
watereyes
les malheurs de lizzie
- Mar 27, 2020
- 737
From an early stage. I have a family photo, in my living room, took when I was 7. and it's funny, everyone is smiling except
for me.
Yeah I been same way for as long as I can remember my life just been a sick joke for nothing
Zozo
Member
- May 4, 2020
- 45
I wouldn't say it was all for nothing. If you enjoyed yourself at the time then the experiences were worth something. Surely life sucks now if you have landed yourself in this forum, but we have photos and music that remind us of better times. It can also have the opposite effect however, if you're like me. Just seeing pictures of back when life was actually enjoyable or hearing music from those times makes me even more depressed because it makes me aware that I've went wayyyy downhill over the years...so yeah I feel ya.
I want to have a mindset like that, but just seeing such photos instantly makes me aware again of how i went downhill. but im trying to stay positive as cliche as it sounds, just changing your mindset can have such a big impact. appreciate the things you DO have
Edit: you got a really good point there, saying it was all for nothing was probably unnecessarily negative sorry.
looking cute thoFrom an early stage. I have a family photo, in my living room, took when I was 7. and it's funny, everyone is smiling except
for me.
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Zozo
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- May 4, 2020
- 45
Just tryin to help. That is the beauty of this forum site though. A group of like minded people can band together and help each other through this journey on a rotating sphere orbiting a much larger, hotter sphere in our neighborhood in the universe in this dimension. Thanks to this site I actually feel like I might have some friends. sheeee-it.
Squiddy
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watereyes
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ssaaahmo
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- May 18, 2020
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I miss younger me when I wasn't depressed. I've always struggled with intense anxiety, but at least back then I was still capable of being happy.
I feel similar. I've been wanting to ctb since I was 11 years old. So when I see pictures of myself as a baby up until about the age of 8 it devastates me. It feels like the child in the picture isn't me and never was.
