i don’t want to die

[lkjhgfdsa1]

i don't want to die
but I don't want to live either
not like this
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I am so sorry to my mom
I love her so much
She has done so much for me
And I screwed up my life so badly
I am terribly sorry and such a mess

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I feel so bad
There is only one way out
ctb is the punishment for all the mistakes I made

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Please tell me it's okay
Please tell me I will die
Please tell me this suffering will end
I am out of energy
I am tired of fighting
Please please I beg you
Let me end this

 

[Unknown21]

Sometimes I feel like I don't want to die either, but unfortunately my life is unlivable. It gets worse with time. I wish my life was a little better than that and had some opportunities. It is very cruel when you are born without your will and you are forced to ctb.

 

[Demian]

i don't want to die
but I don't want to live either
not like this
—————————————————————
I am so sorry to my mom
I love her so much
She has done so much for me
And I screwed up my life so badly
I am terribly sorry and such a mess

——————————————————————
I feel so bad
There is only one way out
ctb is the punishment for all the mistakes I made

Same here

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

Sometimes I feel like I don't want to die either, but unfortunately my life is unlivable. It gets worse with time. I wish my life was a little better than that and had some opportunities. It is very cruel when you are born without your will and you are forced to ctb.

same
I feel forced to ctb
keep distracting myself doing crazy stuffs but it's all no use
I know what I have to do
but I cannot get myself to do it
All I do is procrastinate it

 

[derpyderpins]

ctb is the punishment for all the mistakes I made

Who ordered that sentence? You know I support your right to ctb but if you're doing it to punish yourself that's wrong in so many ways. We punish people (1) so they can learn a lesson, and (2) to satisfy the anger of the people they've wronged. No lessons in ctb, and even if your family is frustrated with you I don't think they want your death as vengeance.

CTB if you want. You have the right not to suffer. But don't do it to "punish" yourself.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

Who ordered that sentence? You know I support your right to ctb but if you're doing it to punish yourself that's wrong in so many ways. We punish people (1) so they can learn a lesson, and (2) to satisfy the anger of the people they've wronged. No lessons in ctb, and even if your family is frustrated with you I don't think they want your death as vengeance.

CTB if you want. You have the right not to suffer. But don't do it to "punish" yourself.

Every day everything is getting much worse
I screwed up badly
and keep screwing up more
I see no way out
I wish I had a guaranteed death
But as i fuck up everything, I'm sure I'll fuck this up too

 

[Unknown21]

same
I feel forced to ctb
keep distracting myself doing crazy stuffs but it's all no use
I know what I have to do
but I cannot get myself to do it
All I do is procrastinate it

Same, Sometimes I feel pity for myself for this reason. I feel very unfair in this world. My requirements are not many, yet the world insists on depriving me of my rights as a human being. Only the privileged are the ones who enjoy everything.

Have you thought about giving life another chance? Talking to your family and trying to solve your problems. At least then you will have done your best. Do you think there really is no hope?

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

Same, Sometimes I feel pity for myself for this reason. I feel very unfair in this world. My requirements are not many, yet the world insists on depriving me of my rights as a human being. Only the privileged are the ones who enjoy everything.

Have you thought about giving life another chance? Talking to your family and trying to solve your problems. At least then you will have done your best. Do you think there really is no hope?

All my sweet family has ever done for me is help me
And I ruin everything by stabbing them in the back
And taking their love for granted
I wish I saw their love for me earlier
But now it's too late
I've screwed up too much already
I am an evil person really
I don't belong in this world

 

[goodoldnoname923]

i don't want to die
but I don't want to live either
not like this
—————————————————————
I am so sorry to my mom
I love her so much
She has done so much for me
And I screwed up my life so badly
I am terribly sorry and such a mess

——————————————————————
I feel so bad
There is only one way out
ctb is the punishment for all the mistakes I made

———

Please tell me it's okay
Please tell me I will die
Please tell me this suffering will end
I am out of energy
I am tired of fighting
Please please I beg you
Let me end this

Truth be told…i don't either…I'm so fucking scared…but like you i'm scared to live as well…i have nothing going for me nothing at fucking all…people see hope in me and seemingly like me but how long for…how long before i hurt and push them away too

I wish i could tell you everything was going to be ok
I wish i could tell you that you will die painlessly
I wish I could make the suffering and pain go away
I wish we could die together because aleast then we wouldn't be alone in our final moments…because i feel your pain…i relate to your story…and i wish we could leave this planet behind

 

[Unknown21]

All my sweet family has ever done for me is help me
And I ruin everything by stabbing them in the back
And taking their love for granted
I wish I saw their love for me earlier
But now it's too late
I've screwed up too much already
I am an evil person really
I don't belong in this world

It is not too late as long as you are alive and do not have intractable problems. Perhaps if you try to open up to your family, this will be the solution. They seem to be supportive of you, and this is a good thing. I do not think it is common, especially here, lol.
In any case, remember that you only live once and suicide is a permanent and irreversible solution, you must decide the matter wisely. I wish you peace, whatever you choose.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

It is not too late as long as you are alive and do not have intractable problems. Perhaps if you try to open up to your family, this will be the solution. They seem to be supportive of you, and this is a good thing. I do not think it is common, especially here, lol.
In any case, remember that you only live once and suicide is a permanent and irreversible solution, you must decide the matter wisely. I wish you peace, whatever you choose.

If someone robs a bank,
Did it not happen when they say they are sorry and try to fix it, and give back the money?

Some things cannot be fixed
Including myself

 

[Unknown21]

If someone robs a bank,
Did it not happen when they say they are sorry and try to fix it, and give back the money?

Some things cannot be fixed
Including myself

Maybe, but I also don't think you robbed a bank.

Your view of yourself that you cannot be fixed condemns you to failure and deprives you of some other possibilities, even if there is hope for improvement.

If you really think that you do not want to die, in my opinion, it is better to give life one last chance, since suicide is irreversible.

In the end, this is your decision and you are the only person who can decide it.