Discussion I don't want to die, but I really don't want to live.

[Abandoned Phantom]

Does anyone else feel this way, or similar? I don't really want to die, per se, but I don't have things I want to live for. I have a couple of friends and a small handful of family members that I don't want to hurt. It feels backwards to how it should be. It's more of a desire not to hurt those select few. It's not really enough anymore.
I Like how right after I posted this, I found a few threads that are in the sam vein. lol

 

[GhostgirlWannadie]

I have the exact same cycle over and over again and every single time I've come out of it without killing myself I feel dissapointed. I always know it's gonna happen again and I can't stop it. Then I start clinging onto somd false hope before I get reminded why it's false. Every. Single. Time. It's so dissapointing.

I used to not care about hurting my family but now I've gotten more empathetic. Some of them would be hurt but they'd move on. My closer family would be devastated. Even so, I still can't live. I still struggle with trying to make the decision to do it.

 

[itsgone2]

I Like how right after I posted this, I found a few threads that are in the sam vein.

Yes. I've not been here that long but have seen them a few times. It's a struggle. Hurting people and SI. Two huge obstacles.
I feel the same
Many do. It sucks. No easy way out of this. If only you could flip a switch

 

[Pale_Rider]

I'm scared of what's next. Have I been perfect? No. Has my heart always strived to intercede? Yes.