Every other aspect of my life is getting better like the way I always dreamed it to be but I fkd myself up with prone masturbation. It's been 5 years since I became fully impotent and feel no sexual attraction.. and no there is currently no cure. Idk how exactly prone masturbation affects the shaft but I got serious tissue and nerve injury down there. Being a former med student I hate doctors and current medical system.. it's just stupid and profit based. I really like to live and wish there was a way around this but everyday is like torture and still to this day I can not believe what I have done with myself and how I ruined what could have been an amazing life. My life is like a comedic tragedy. Now I spend everyday thinking about how to kill myself in a way to not fail and end up in a worse condition. The worst part is everyone surrounding me thinks I'm having it at best and there's so much expectations from family. No one understands me and I can't share this with anyone.
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