I dont want to ctb by purpose

[spectraltease]

Im the only one who does not want to ctb by purpose. It's too cumbersome to walk into the forest and hang me there lol.
I want to wake up and dont know I will die that day yk.
Like being rolled over by a truck by accident or something.

 

[emptybox]

I want a luxury of having control(that CTB on purpose gives), but I don't want a burden of doing everything on my own. . .

I'm scared of unpredictability, want things to happen on my terms or at least close to it; life is too random so I'm trying to be faster, ha ha. Death by accident seems scary but I'd still take it(well I wouldn't have a choice)

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that it's certainly understandable wishing to die from some other cause, as after all in this world suicide can be very difficult and involve risks and complications. Ideally I would prefer to die at a time of my own choosing, but it's just not straightforward to die that way and that is the unfortunate thing that I hate. I consider those who die accidentally and don't survive with injuries to be fortunate as they don't have to suffer in finding a way to exit themselves.