Help I don’t want to be scared and alone anymore

[19andOverdue]

I'm not ready to go yet, I still have a grain of hope. I'm going to a mental health facility soon, and they require me to be sober for a month before I go. Sobriety is agonizing, and I stay up for days at a time because I can't shut up my neurosis and intrusive thoughts. If this treatment doesn't work out, then I'll consider ctb seriously. I'm tired, I've been doing this my whole life, and everyone has abandoned me because of it

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you suffer so much. I understand the feeling of being tired of everything. Some people really can be so cruel, and I think that in general, people can be disappointing and unreliable. It is such a depressing world that we live in. I wish you the best with your plans.