I know I've been pretty shitty to a lot of people in my life, and I am not considered a Christian by most Christians, and that's the majority religion around here, though that doesn't make it any more credible than any other religion. Most people are afraid to think of the supernatural with any rules or religious framework, sort of a la NDEs if one believes those have any supernatural components, but they are awfully inconsistent and relatively rare it would seem. I can see the appeal at times of how someone dying for another would be an ultimate act of love (although, why not live for one another, why this angry God who needs to kill His own son, or wait is it Himself lol, to atone for His wrath?) and well, you know all the theological back and forth, we all do here I suspect.
I hope so, part of me feels that way too. I really hope if there is an afterlife, there is only Love waiting for us, or at least, much more love than we thought. Perhaps those suicides that are successful means whatever Creator or force that may exist, has welcomed them home, and those that wake back up are not ready yet, but why the agonizing suffering of say, gunshot suicide survivors who are kept alive on feeding tubes or anything for years? Locked in syndrome? it's all quite inconsistent, thus taking away from evidence of supernatural for me. Still, the phenomenon of sentience in each of our bodies is an curious thing, to me this seems otherworldly, supernatural, but that's just a feeling. Why am I here in this body at this time and born where I was? Sort of thing.